Hello World

I am a single Mom. I have been for 14 years. >>YIKES<< I didn't set out to be a veteran single Mom. This wasn't in my plan at all. I've been waiting for the knight in shinning armour to show up and rescue me but I guess Knights in shinning armour don't have a personal GPS on board cuz so far he's a no-show!

Really........I hardly think about it any more. Actually I hardly have time to think about it. I have 2 - 14 year old boys. Do you understand how awful that is? When people decided or accidently have babies I really don't think they look to the future and realise that - that really cute baby is going to turn into a hormonal teenager. Personally I think these 2 teenagers are my punishment for a few bad choices of my own.

April 4th is their birthday - thats tomorrow. Then it's only a short 4 more years until they are 18. Only 4 years! I think these 4 years are going to be the longest 4 years of my life.

As I said above, I didn't set out to be a single Mom. I met and married a gorgous man who turned out not to be who I thought he was. (Someday maybe I will post that story) So, long story short I left with 2 babies and a diaperbag. 1st stop............."The Parents House" - My parents were very generous with us. For awhile I was able to just be at home and be a Mom. It was a great time. After a couple of years I saved enough money for the 3 of us to get our own place where we still live to this day.

And now here we are 14 years latter - OK well --- more like 10 years latter. Here I sit writing a blog.

Why am I still single? Well 1st of all I haven't met anyone, OK well - lets be a bit more specific. I haven't meet anyone of quality. I used to pray & pray that I would meet 'him' while the boys were still babies, then toddlers, then little boys, and then it got harder. It seems to me that who ever I dated in my eyes didn't qualify as "Dad". I know alot of people out there would argue and say your not dating to fill the "Dad" slot, but to me not only am I trying to find a companion for myself but it also has to be a good fit for everyone. So sometimes I feel like I am not meant to meet "Him" until the boys are all growed up and gone.

OK another reason is --- Men my age are not dating woman my age. This is really sad! For me anyway. I am 47 years old, seriously even if I go up 10 years, 57 year old men are not dating women my age. Maybe they are, I have been out of the dating pool for roughly 10 years. Part of the problem is I don't go out. I don't go to night clubs. I don't go to bars. I don't go to coffee cafe's. I don't go to book stores. I love to read mind you, I just get my books a different route. I've often thought of posting a newspaper ad:

"Slightly used Single White Female, still lots of miles left" hahahahahahahaha-LOL-hahahahaha! That always makes me laugh.

Now......it's been soooo long since I've even been on a date I don't even really think about it. I do a lot of stuff. I love love love art. I love to create art. My favorite is to create art out of other peoples trash. I am going to take some pictures of some stuff I have done and post.

OK - well this is the begining.

Ta-Ta for now -=- Peace